there you are

today is her day.

her closest family and everyone whose life she touched

will rise in a singular hope;

to share the essence of her place in our forever hearts.

countless photographs book marking her life 

will hold up the very walls,

and each of us;

bereft in a

 thick sea of longing and loss.

 i will linger there, tracing the contours of her smiling eyes 

savoring each missive; her history of love.

already my heart is crushing with the exquisite beauty of her;

and the ultimate bittersweet

that-which-waits-for-all-of-us

letting go.

there will be flowers, music, memories,

all chosen with the care 

one bestows on newborns and last goodbyes.

all the moments in between..

all the words spoken and those left unsaid

every gesture.

there,

right there,

this moment and then the next;

oh to live this mindfully through it all.

 

this morning, 

before i slip the black dress over my head,

i woke from a dream.

i watched myself walk into the room we will travel to today.

i moved through a crowd of her people 

and there in a side chapel 

standing all alone was my friend.

i rushed over to her side as she drank me in 

with such savoring. 

she opened her arms to pull me against her heart,

"there you are"

she exclaimed with a voice as sweet and warm as honey.

and we held each other

closer than close

completely wrapped in unleashed love.

 

 

 

Comments

[judie]

This tears at my heart, Rebecca. I understand your loss. I wish you peace today.

[Deb Taylor]

rushing in to hold you. I love you. Let us not waste another moment to savor our time together. Awake. Alive.

[gemma]

May you hold that special love in your heart until you do indeed meet again.

[magicalmysticalteacher]

Your friend knows...

[Lea]

Sending love... to you today and always. That pull of the heart... always... there you are, it sings... there you are. I love you dear friend. Holding your heart with gentle hands... XOXOXO

[annie]

Dream or reality, the love between you two friends reached across the veil and touched.

[somepinkflowers]

{{ thinking of you,
dear one ...
your memories
your emotions
your YOUness

xox }}

[Fran Pullara]

What a beautiful tribute to your friend, Rebecca.

[Constanza]

i am always touched with your use of language. what a perfect and poetic post about the deep deep bond of true friendship.

[Paula Scott]

So, so sorry for your loss-it does shock the senses and creates a gap in one's life as you/we learn how to continue on without them. May you find comfort and solace in all that love that surrounds you and is sent your way.
Hugs, hugs and more hugs,
Paula

[Laura Hegfield]

How blessed she was/will be beyond earth time to have you as a dear friend, closer than close.