do you remember being just old enough
to replace the universally favored day of youth,
insert-your-birthday here, with a new more promising choice?
thank goodness for the moment you moved
one baby step away from childhood's ego centered I-ME-Mine orientation
to show a hint of altruism
and decide, perhaps the world turns round
with greater thoughts than just yourself.
(insert great excitement and birds cheeping approval at your new found enlightenment!)
my leap towards cosmic awareness,
my; let's begin in the spirit of renewal, let's hail in the new year
on the upbeat-bird-singing-everything-is-possible
new favorite day of the year
was
vernal equinox!!!
what was i thinking???
when i took my most beloved first day of Spring
and slated it for a doomed from
the start wedding date?
were there signs,
an abundance of RED FLAGS
shouting
STOP!!!!
move away from the groom???
yes.
did i nearly fall from grace???
YES!
did i loose my footing in the garden of innocence???
YES!!!
did the blossom of sweet youth in the bosom of eternal optimism
wither and die on the vine?
YES!!!!!
and for a long, long time..
(insert gravely sorrowful voice)
did the first day of Spring
conjure up a gazillon
shattered dreams and broken hearts?
sadly, yes.
did i live to sing again???
did i find my way back to the comfort of seasons?
did i remember the world turns with a
greater purpose than just myself?
did i claim courage to once again
open my eyes and heart?
did i get my groove back,
fly in the face of grave misfortune and find humor,
promise and happiness once more?
oh yeah!!
did i learn to face life squarely,
look unabashed into the heart of each new moment?
reassemble the thousand broken pieces into something
whole???
A resounding YES!!!!!!!!
did, in the moment of forgiveness
music play in the distance?
flowers spring into bloom,
birds light in my
hair?
(spare me)
but, after picking up all the pieces and fashioning a perfectly
older more worldly don't-let-her-innocent-daisy-eyes-fool-you bride,
finally,
welcome spring!!!!!!!
